I watch to make sure you’re still alive, to make sure you haven’t left me yet. If I could hook you up to a monitor, I would. That’s how terrified I am of losing you. I have nightmares of the day that I’ll have to live without you because I’ve given up so much to be with you. I’ve changed and if I had to live without you, I’m afraid I wouldn’t survive, I wouldn’t know how. Each moment we have together is stored inside every part of me. Those memories are stuck there and they will never become unstuck, with or without you in my life. You might be mine and regardless of how tight I hold on, I fear that it is not enough. I envision your fingers slipping away from mine until you’re just out of reach… until you’re gone.

I wish I could guarantee that nothing will happen to me, that I will always be there for you, through all the paths that life may take us but I can’t. What I can give you is this, a promise that I will not wake up tomorrow and feel different. I loved you yesterday, today and I will love you always. You’re my sleeping beauty and I can only hope that my kiss will wake you up from whatever haunts you at night.